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Saturday, April 5, 2008

Two Steps Backward

I am keeping up with my commitment to get to Curves three times a week (keep trying, Julia!). But I am eating horribly. Too much and mostly poor snack choices. Yes, I know I should have a little protein and a little carbs for snacks, and space them out through the day so I don't get too hungry, and watch portion control, and all that.

But at 3 o'clock in the afternoon, when I'm TIRED, I'm shoving whatever junk I can find in my mouth. It starts with being hungry, and then it's like I just can't stop. I have actually gained weight since I joined Curves (just a little), but not lost inches anywhere either.

I know that part of the problem is that I'm tired. I'm not getting to bed early enough, and getting up at 6 to see JC off to school. I have no willpower when I'm tired, and sometimes it feels like I'm eating to stay awake. Part of the problem is that I'm stressing over the consignment sale - and one of my (not good) reactions is to freeze. I'm not doing the things that need to be done, because, well, I don't really know why. It's this procrastination response where I feel like I'm bored, even though I have things that I really need to do, but I can't get started. And then I eat.

I know I can do this sale, I've done 3 or 4 as the lead coordinator, and numerous others as a helper. But I'm REALLY short on consignors and I just feel... unmotivated. I'll get it together, but not in a terribly graceful way, and we'll make money, but probably not as much as we could have, and... I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if I am depressed, in the clinical sense. I'm pretty high functioning, but I could do much more if I could just get moving!


Jill in MA said...

First, keep up the Curves thing!! No matter what else you do (or don't do), that's still good and you should feel good about it! And keep it up!!

The rest of what you're saying, I get it. I feel it. All the time. I look at everything that needs to be done around my house and it's overwhelming. And I'm frozen. I do have to say that our executive meetings, while they haven't caused dramatic changes, are helping me to take more baby steps toward being organized. Together, Steve and I try to break things down, at least a little bit, and re-prioritize each week as life changes around us. My most successful weeks are the ones when I take my list from the executive meeting and then plan out the week by listing the things that (ideally) I'd like to get done on each day. Rarely do I actually do everything I want to in a day, but at least it gives me smaller goals and I can usually get at least one thing done, instead of being frozen. When I don't make the daily lists, I tend to put things off until tomorrow much more often....

That reminds me, I should make a list of daily goals for this week.

Susan Z said...

I ditto Jill with the Curves thing. Hopefully it will give you more energy.
I too find that it is hard to get moving and hard to break things down into small enough pieces to look like they are doable. Have you been getting enough sunlight? Are you getting a reasonable amount of sleep? I actually had a stress dream a couple of night ago and I haven't had one of those in a really long time (we're talking years here) even though I don't really feel like I am super stressed.

ooolia said...

Keep moving and don't beat yourself up too much. I keep very few snacks at work because otherwise I eat them. I have NO self control when I'm hungry.

I keep lots of lists, and I use my handy timer. The boys find it irritating, but it's the only way I can keep from getting overly distracted. Plus, I try to focus for 15 minutes on something I'm dreading and then reward myself when the timer goes off.

Good luck. I've gotta get to bed. I'm trying to catch up on sleep this week since M is gone.